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Sunday, January 1st, 2012

Subject:Word of the year!
Time:2:12 pm.
Mood: hopeful.
I can't pick just one so this year I am going to focus on strength and relationships.

The strength to keep going, to stay positive, to fight for what is right, to be supportive even when I don't want to be.

The strenght to go through with things I don't want to and to improve my health.

The strength to stick to my plan and work hard to get there.

The strength to keep things in line at the household and take deep breaths when I want to.

The strength to say No and be clear on what I need.

The strength that I thought I was out of after last year!

I'm ready

For relationships:

To build the ones that matter most and appreciate all you have and value what they offer!
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Subject:Going through old paperwork...
Time:2:04 pm.
Mood: hopeful.

When you are sad,... I will get you drunk and help you plot revenge against the sorry bastard who made you sad.

When you are blue, ..I'll try to dislodge whatever is choking you.

When you smile, ... I'll know you finally got laid.

When you are scared, ...I will rag you about it every chance I get.

When you are worried, ...I will tell you horrible stories about how much worse it could be and to quit whining.

When you are confused, ...I will use little words to explain it to your dumb ass.

When you are sick, ...stay away from me until you're well again. I don't want whatever you have.

When you fall, ...I will point and laugh at your clumsy ass.

This is my oath, ...I pledge 'til the end. Why you may ask? Because you're my friend!
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Friday, December 16th, 2011

Time:7:57 pm.
Mood: creative.
I love my job. It seems so crazy to me, on Dec 6th I celebrated 1 year and love where I am right now. I have an amazing manager, I am inspired by the changes and the direction the organization wants to go. I have faith that there are some places that truly care about the patient and not just the bottom dollar. I am so excited to be a part of that transition.

I am on the shared governance or council for care transformation group. This group looks at the way things are done and fixes them. We are moving to a hospital that is run by the nurses and that will treat all patients as one. Meeting there needs, being of assistance and truly care. This group is the first at Watertown. They are so forward thinking and although money is involved it is not the bottom dollar.

My manager lets us run our unit, we make changes and find things that don't work and update them and keep the ball rolling. It is so amazing to do what we as a group see is right. I truly believe our patients get phenomenal care because each of us is part of the way things run. We are all invested in the organization. There are small problems but in the end all works out and we have really become like a family.

Comittee's. I once dreaded them and only participated to build a resume. Now I do all the comittee stuff I can. I'm on the council, the holiday party, the greeting card, the winter farmer's market, the medatech super user. The list goes on. I'm hoping to start animal therapy at the hospital!!!! My goal was to work at a facility that participates in animal rescue/therapy. What a huge step.

I wish school was as motivating!
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2011

Subject:Fa la la la la la la la la
Time:5:03 am.
Christmas songs! I think the most played Christmas song this year is I want a hippopotomus for Christmas. Every day at work it plays over and over and over again. I am so happy that today Dominic the Donkey came on. :)

I wish we had more patients, unfortunately it means that more children have to get sick or hurt....what a conundrum
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Sunday, December 11th, 2011

Time:9:41 pm.
1. Your real name: Heather

2. Your detective name (favorite color and favorite animal): Orange Penquin

3. Your soap opera name (middle name and a street you live on): Marie Hampton

4. Your Star Wars name (first 3 letters of last name, first 2 of middle name, first 2 of first, last 3 of last): Strmahevey

5. Superhero name (2nd favorite color and favorite drink): Teal Sunkist

6. Goth name (black and one of your pets): Black Cleophus
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Monday, December 5th, 2011

Time:6:15 pm.
Mood: frustrated.
I am so frustrated with my in-laws!!! I can't believe how controlling they are! Did they forget their son was married, do they realize that they are going to push us away!! Probably not, I need to figure out a way to let them know that they are stepping over the boudaries. The most recent thing is the Christmas lights, last year they took ours down while we were on vacation. I didn't ask them too, want them too, or need them too. I thought everything was fine and they were tucked away but we searched for days just to find out they threw away the ones from around the house. I set up my blow up snowman to find out that they ripped him from the ground so he didn't work. Now we are missing our tree that we bought new last year and both Chris and I are afraid to ask. I am going to shoot her an email I think.....so I don't loose my temper or feel guilty about it.
Before this was the wedding, they had an amount in their heads, wouldn't tell us what that amount was but would randomly pick up things and subract them from the total. They drove us nuts about it, then when my parents were planning on paying for things last minute they decide to to make a show for my parents and subract it. Don't try to tell us how we are going to or not going to spend our money. Do not be so secretive.
Before this was coming over to do yardwork it's not nice when it's a command and we have to drop everything we do. It's not nice when it comes at an inconvienience. Same as when you want stuff done. You cannot call in the morning and have us drop everything, plan, I know that is a different concept but your son has his own familly.
Before this was the landscape weekend. Thanks for talking to us about what we want then not listening at all. I am not a yardwork person, I did not want a garden all the way around my house. There is not someone to take care of it here.
There is more but it is all the same. Chris doesn't understand, this is intrusive and mean. It makes me feel that they don't view us as a family. I don't know how to stop it, I don't know how to talk to them without getting in a confrontation. I also know that if it doesn't stop it could potentially ruin my marriage. Maybe not now, maybe in 20 years from now, but thats not fair. After talking to Chris I am not sure that he will ever be able to stand up to them. My suggestion is to move. I want to put a for sale sign up at our house so we are more than five minutes away.
The best thing I ever did for my family is move away so we could develop a relationship and they were forced to let me do my own thing....
I have so much going on if they keep up all of this one day I am going to snap and not be able to handle it anymore. There is so much more going on right now with family, work, finances, health, I don't need someone trying to do it all for me.
I lived on my own for 8 years before i met there son, I made it all those times....grrr
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Saturday, November 26th, 2011

Subject:Difficult Decision
Time:10:33 am.
It's amazing this year keeps going! This last year was one of the best and worst in my life. A year ago today i went up to Thanksgiving with my grandparents only to watch my grandfather fade every day before he passed away December 2nd. He is the first of the three grandpa's to follow. We have had more people die, between friends, Tammy's parents, and just weird accidents. We have faced many sureries, changing jobs, getting engaged and married, a garage roof, basement fixing and all kinds of stuff. Now I get to pick when I get to have surgery. Seems interesting. I need surgery on my eyes. Scary! If everything goes well within 2 months I should be good. If it doesn't go well, it's an up hill battle. Interesting! Hard to nail down a day.
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Wednesday, November 16th, 2011

Subject:Love and Marriage
Time:1:05 am.
Life just keeps speeding up, and is such a roller ooaster, the wedding is over, the honeymoon is over and it's time to get back to real life. I wish I didn't have too. There is something wrong with Mike (Chris's dad's) stent that he had after his heart attack Sept 19th so tomorrow he goes for another cardiac cath. I have been super sick the last 48 hours for no reason. I don't know why but I had hoped that things would change after the wedding. I know my expectations were foolish, but I'm afraid of something happening to Chris's dad, he is such a foundation of the family and he has been different since his first heart attack. I am just praying. As for me, I wish that the tests would show something...everytime I go for it and it comes back negative it makes me wonder what is really going on and also has the doctors thinking that I'm not really having issues. But what's not happening is not right....I don't want to sound so mellow dramatic so now I will focus on the good things.

The wedding was everything anyone could dream it to be. I can not wait to get our video and our pictures. I really feel like I found my other half. The honeymoon was ok, I wish it had been better weather, and we had got to see more animals when we were snorkeling. Did not care for the jellyfish underneath me ;) My parents got two new kitty babies today, which is cute, I never thought my dad would have turned into such a kittie daddy. The cat rescue paid off, I can't believe all the good things that have happened from working with those people.

Life is different, more different then I ever imagined, but good because despite everything I wouldn't change where I am for a minute.
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Monday, June 20th, 2011

Time:12:11 pm.
Today my attention span is very short! This afternoon I go to Occupational Therapy and I am curious to see what they think and what their suggestions are going to be with some of the stuff that is going on. That doesn't mean that I am focusing on my homework that is due for my class!! With all the stuff going on I don't feel like I can focus as well. The hard part is that means my undergrad degree is taking longer and longer to get...I know that one day I will graduate I just hope that I can get my focus back together. Maybe I will have to take another class abroad. That was one way to stay interested in the material. Keeping my fingers crossed!!
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Wednesday, June 8th, 2011

Time:10:30 am.
This year has been an interesting year. In the last six months, Chris and I have lost three grandfathers, gotten engaged, I've been on two big trips. Also having fun with medical appointments. I'm glad the wedding is coming up and hopefully this school semester goes well this summer, I can't wait for that to be done!
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Tuesday, October 19th, 2010

Subject:Changes in life
Time:9:31 am.
Wow, a lot has changed since my last post! In may I moved in with Chris, by July 1st, my apartment was re-rented and I have started my life in a new much smaller city, increased my commute to work by an hour as well as school. I started my internship in Juneau and am loving every minute of the excitement. I can't wait to be done though. Life is good. I am making it through hunting season better than I thought. Chris and I met one year ago on halloween and he still is amazing to be around, things are going well for the two of us. I now have three cats, we got Max in July he's a character and adds a little spice to the mix. It is good. Work is a little stressful, we've gone through some major changes, I am thinking about making some changes
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Monday, January 18th, 2010

Time:10:07 pm.
Chris is wonderful, things are going very well, he invited me to live at his house when my lease is up which got me thinking. This is one of the first times in the last years that I actually know what someone thinks about me, without a question of a doubt. Why does that feel wierd to me? I guess I'm just waiting for the other hand to drop. Doesn't look like it will for a while, we are going to go to Las Vegas together in May with his aunt and uncle which should be fun.
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Tuesday, January 5th, 2010

Subject:New Years
Time:10:54 pm.
Another year gone by, sitting here thinking of the past year of the good and the bad. It's amazing how much faster time seems to fly. I finished a full year at a University which I never thought would happen, but one step closer to my goal. Had some issues with a close friend that hopefully will resolve themselves in 2010 but if not, at least he was in my life at some point. Met a new boyfriend on a blind date for Halloween, set up by a girlfriend off of the internet. He is amazing, I have never met someone who gets better every time you see them! He'll be coming to my house this Thursday and I can't wait. This year I gave Madison a chance and really got to know the city, some of the food, and festivals. I have decided that the farmers market is awesome. I also have decided to make 2010 memorable. As far as resolutions, I think the first would be to finish another year of school, second be open to fishing with Chris, and finally spending next New Years with him as well!
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Tuesday, November 24th, 2009

Subject:Thanksgiving Week!
Time:5:31 pm.
This week seems crazy busy and I can't believe it's happening already!! I swear the years are going faster and faster. Not only that my birthday is just in a few short weeks. Crazyness. School is interesting I can't believe I'm almost done with 30 credits. I never thought that would happen let alone have taken classes for two years straight!!! With holidays coming I'm sure life is going to get more hectic! Can't wait for the nonpoint concert on the 12th. More to come after class...
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Thursday, May 28th, 2009

Subject:Rockfest Here I come!
Time:10:41 pm.
This last year has been an interesting one, especially starting to go to concerts again! I just got off of work to head out to the last day of Rockfest with my co-workers and Greg. I think Korn, Shinedown, Sevendust are some of the bands we are going to see. I'm excited
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Wednesday, May 27th, 2009

Time:1:05 am.
I am sitting here remembering when I last logged in and wrote something looking over all the enteries that I've written and comments that I've had. I remember the online friends I've made and the jobs I've worked and the apartments I've had. It's interesting how one website can bring back a flood of memories! For those who still read this on a regular basis. I am doing ok. Lately life has thrown a mucked up mess but over all things are turning out well. I have returned to school pursueing a degree in Health Care Administration from Concordia University. I have moved to a wonderful new apartment. Family crisis has reached an all time high, with my grandfather ending up with colon cancer, my brothers attempt at suicide, fathers surgery, my surgery. But here we are a few weeks later and everyone has come out on top. I am at an interesting spot career wise. I work on a Day Surgery unit full time which does not meet my full potential but is crucial during school years. I still work with Select amazing at how fast the time flies when you are not there full time. Hope everyone else is well and is fairing lifes challenges well!
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Sunday, February 17th, 2008

Subject:Wine vs. Water
Time:10:07 pm.
Wine vs. Water

To my friends who enjoy a glass of wine... and those who don't.
As Ben Franklin said:
'In wine there is wisdom, in beer there is freedom,
in water there is bacteria.'

In a number of carefully controlled trials, scientists
have demonstrated that if we drink 1 liter of water
each day, at the end of the year we would
have absorbed more than 1 kilo of Escherichia coli,
(E. coli) - bacteria found in feces. In other words,
we are consuming 1 kilo of poop.

However, we do NOT run that risk when drinking wine &
beer (or tequila, rum, whiskey or other liquor)
because alcohol has to go through a purification
process of boiling, filtering and/or fermenting.

Water = Poop,
Wine = Health.

Therefore, it's better to drink wine and talk stupid,
than to drink water and be full of shit .

There is no need to thank me for this valuable
information: I'm doing it as a public service.
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Saturday, February 9th, 2008

Time:9:28 pm.
Mood: sick.
Just took time today to look over my friends, my posts, my different thoughts over the years. Wow things change over time. I remember when I used to look at this all the time updating it regularily with all the crap that seem so important in my life. The need to express every emotion. Things have changed so much. I'm glad for this it gives me a chance to relieve and see how I was sometimes irrational and silly and sometimes predicting things in the future. The most interesting thought is I never thought I would be where I am today. Living in a new city excelling at work and school. Life is great isn't it.
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Friday, August 4th, 2006

Subject:bad days!!
Time:11:08 pm.
Mood: depressed.
How to Make a Woman Happy

It's not difficult to make a woman happy. A man only needs to be:

1. a friend

2. a companion

3. a lover

4. a brother

5. a father

6. a master

7. a chef

8. an electrician

9. a carpenter

10. a plumber

11. a mechanic

12. a decorator

13. a stylist

14. a sexologist

15. a gynecologist

16. a psychologist

17. a pest exterminator

18. a psychiatrist

19. a healer

20. a good listener

21. an organizer

22. a good father

23. very clean

24. sympathetic

25. athletic

26. warm

27. attentive

28. gallant

29. intelligent

30. funny

31. creative

32. tender

33. strong

34. understanding

35. tolerant

36. prudent

37. ambitious

38. capable

39. courageous

40. determined

41. true

42. dependable

43. passionate

44. compassionate


45. give her compliments regularly

46. love shopping

47. be honest

48. be very rich

49. not stress her out

50. not look at other girls


51. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself

52. give her lots of time, especially time for herself

53. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes


54. Never to forget:

* birthdays

* anniversaries

* arrangements she makes


1. Show up naked

2. Bring beer and remote
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Friday, February 24th, 2006

Time:10:36 pm.
Mood: moody.
I found this a very interesting article, let me know what you think, the message is Love loves Love, and in past experience is very true when reading.

How Do You Know when Someone is in Love with You?
By Ethan Berry


Often we have to ask ourselves, does he/she really love me? Is he/she really in love with me? Am I in love with him/her? Do I really love him/her? These are questions of the heart and only you know the answer. However, there are indicators to help us understand the answer to our question of being in love and knowing when someone is in love with us.

When there is a question, there is undoubtedly an answer. It may not be the answer we are looking for, but there is an answer. The key to receiving the answer is being able to accept the truth. Sometimes we don't want to know the truth because it hurts. It hurts because we want things our way, just like we dreamed it up. Unfortunately, life cannot always be the dream that we want it to be. Sometimes, maybe most of the time for most of us, life is not the dream we want at all, not anything close to it. It's important to understand that love does not love anyone, it just loves love. This is why it is so easy to fall in love and so difficult to stay in love. Love is! And that is it. The Bible says that there is no greater love than this, than a man lay down his life for his friend (John chapter 15 verse 13). If this is an indicator of someone being in love then we must be able to answer the question: "Would I die for him/her?" and "would he/she die for me?"

Often in relationships people neglect to embrace the truth of who they are and therefore cannot understand themselves enough to answer questions of love. For example, I have often asked this question of someone whom I was very interested in, "What did you not know about the person you just broke up with that you learned later in the relationship?" If a person is really truthful about this, they would say exactly what they learned down the road that they did not know in the beginning of the relationship. Often it is these things we find out later about a person that makes us change our mind about being with them. The response I typically get is, "I cannot answer that question." Or "I have to think about that?" This indicates that there is nothing that they did not know from the beginning. The next question I typically ask is even more provocative and to the point, "Did you pay attention to what you knew about the person or did you think you could change them or they would change later on in the relationship?" The answer for this one is always, "I just thought things would change." The point here is if you are honest with yourself and the person you are interested in, and truly pay attention to who you are and what you are about, you would not allow yourself to get into relationships where you had to change something about someone or wait for them to change something about themselves. This goes to that old cliché "Be true to yourself." This is not to say that people don't change, rather the change should be for the better, not the worse.

You see, answering the above questions honestly will give you power to embrace the truth about you. When you know the truth about you, it will allow you to deal with others with more honesty and truth as well. Now here is the touchy part, can you ask this question of someone you are in love with and accept their answer? When you make up your mind that you are in love with someone, does that mean that they must be in love with you? If so, then you are not really in love, you are in need of a hug. You cannot force anyone to be in love with you. This is what makes many marriages fail, people try to force each other to be in love and it ends up destroying the relationship. Being in love is something that must be voluntary. Some of the books on the subject of relationships and finding someone to fall in love with and have them fall in love with you are nothing more than a cookbook for a bad relationship. The famed game of love is just that, a game. You should take note, that as in all games, there are winners and losers. However, you should also know that "Love" is not a game, it is a life style and you need to be able to commit to that life style like a religion, with your mate, and like wise your mate must be able to commit to you in the same way.


There is nothing more to knowing if that man or that woman is in love with you or if you are in love with them. There is no secret, there is no game, there is only the truth. The truth is being willing to die for that person and that person being willing to die for you. In a since that is what marriage is all about: "Two people dying as individuals and becoming a new person together. Working together, pulling together, pushing together and being in love together for ever."

Now the term "die" does not mean that you will actually go through with it at some point and end your life. God willing both of you will live a long time and be happy together. However, it does mean that when it comes to satisfying each other and making each other happy that you would put your inhibitions aside (kill your fears and worries) and do what is necessary to make your mate happy and like wise your mate must be able to do the same for you. If there is no reciprocity, then there is no love. Reciprocity does not mean a quid pro quo. In other words, never get into a situation where you only will do what your mate will do for you. This is not love. Sometimes you will give more then your mate and other times your mate will give more than you. This is how it will always be. There is no such thing as 50/50 love. Forget that Teddy Pendergrass song from back in the day, it only sounds good. When you find yourself giving more than your mate, just remember, this is the person you are in love with and this person is in love with you. The Bible says that "charity covers a multitude of sins" (I Peter Chapter 4 Verse 8 KJV). The definition of "charity" is: lenient judgment of others. You must be willing and able to have lenient judgment of the person you are in love with. Be willing to grow with your mate through communication when mistakes are made. This is an on going thing, it never ends as long as you both live.


The Bible explains the greatest thing is charity: "And now abide faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity (I Corinthians Chapter 13 verse 13 KJV)." It also says "And though I have the gift of prophecy, and understand all mysteries, and all knowledge; and though I have all faith, so that I could remove mountains, and have not charity, I am nothing. (I Corinthians Chapter 13 verse 2 KJV)" When you consider what charity brings to a relationship, if you cannot show charity between each other, but everything else is simply wonderful, your relationship really is nothing.

Last, but not least, a clear indicator of someone being in love with you is when they can keep other people out of your personal relationship with them. Your friends and family may mean well, but you are not in love with them and they apparently cannot be in love with you like your mate. Otherwise, why do you even need to be with your mate? Keep your friends and family, but keep them out of your relationship when it comes to making yourself and your mate happy. A good Bible scripture for this is Mathew Chapter 6 verses 3 and 4: "But when you do a charitable deed, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing, that your charitable deed may be in secret; and your Father who sees in secret will Himself reward you openly."

Everyone does not need to be a mentor or counselor in your relationship with your mate. Learn how to keep most intimate things between you and your mate to yourself. I am not talking about abusive things, just personal things that should only be between you two.

You can tell when someone is in love with you when they are willing to consistently show charity and demonstrate unselfishness toward you and your needs. This does not mean that you should take kindness for weakness. This would be a big mistake. Often people show charity and love for their mate, but the mate takes it for granted and begins simply ignoring the truth of true love. Love just loves love and if love does not receive love back, then it will soon find another love. This again is a form of being able to die for them and they should reciprocate willing to die for you (die in the sense of putting there own selfishness aside to make you happy and you being able to do the same for them) with cheerfulness.

"Pastor Ethan" is a character based on Author, Nevada York from her novel, Mahogany's Revelation. "Pastor Ethan" resides in the Bay Area of California. http://nevadayork.com

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